It was a Sunday when I took that test,
Two lines appeared on a stick,
I was shocked and in disbelief,
To be honest, I felt a bit sick.
My mind rushed about my body and life,
I kept thinking about what this would mean for me,
I’m sad to admit you were scary,
More scary than I thought you would be.
But then I found you were size of a blueberry,
And suddenly I burst into tears,
You were real, small and fragile,
And I had wanted you for years.
I thought about you there within me,
I thought about being your mum,
I thought about how lucky I was,
Because at times, I didn’t think this day would come.
You have changed me already,
And I’m only 12 weeks through,
I have put my health first,
Because that’s what you need me to do.
I want you to be happy and healthy,
I’m impatient to know if you’ll be like me,
I want you to know at first I was scared and selfish,
But you changed that almost instantly.
I want you to be here already,
Partly as pregnancy is tough,
But mainly because I can’t wait to love you,
I really hope I’m enough.
I often sit and night and hold you,
I wonder if you know I’m thinking of you,
Please don’t be scared or lonely,
You are forever my little baby blue.